Ive been so absolutly sad these past few days. Its like, my day has been going perfectly and then I get home, or I let myself think for like two seconds and I instantly feel like shit. I keep feeling like Kaylei just tolorates me. She said it sucks that Im friends with Tessa. Which, honeslty I cant call us friends. Not yet atleast. But Im not going to hate her just because other people do. She never personally wronged me. I refuse to be cruel. Someone told me yesterday that Colleen is only friends with me to piss Kaylei off. That hurt so god damned much. I talked to her about, and that helped. Melanie has changed so much. I just want to cry. I prefered her fucking my boys then how she is now. Sierra is now purposfully saying or doing things to hurt me, which is hella shitty.

I keep feeling like all of my friends are drifting away. Or I’m hurting them in some way. and its killing me.